Looney Scholarship application DONE
I feel like I keep writing the same things over and over again in all my scholarship essays and job applications and it’s getting a bit tiring..
I bought my ticket
and there were so little left that me and Charlie are sitting in different sections
but guys
I’M GONNA SEE PAUL MCCARTNEY
A MOTHERFUCKING BEATLE
I’M SO SO SO SO SO EXCITED
Paul McCartney is having a concert in Orlando on May 19th and I literally cannot pass up another chance to see him live, but nobody can afford to go with me and I’m seriously considering just going by myself
Is that sad?
distracting myself whopeeeeee
so this weekend I tripped with a group of friends at the Suwanee River and it was the strongest acid I’ve like ever taken, the visuals I had overlooking the water and of all the plants and trees were just so incredible, and I really really want to paint them now that they’re fresh in my memory. My friend was playing guitar and singing and I literally cried and had goosebumps from how beautiful the evening was and Jack Johnson was playing while we watched the sunset over the river
then it got dark as fuck and we broke out the orbits and gloves and had a rave by the water and the trails were making everything look so incredible!
and I actually came to some kind of spiritual realization, which has never happened to me on acid.. so much of the human potential gets lost in translation. the mind is capable of SO MUCH incredible thought but we just cannot communicate it all. we try so hard to relate what we think to others but sometimes you just have to learn to be silent. humans are afraid of silence. we think it feels awkward. silence sometimes has the capability of bringing people so much closer together, but our need to communicate often hinders the experience because no amount of words in any language can ever convey a thought to its fullest extent. things get weird because we just aren’t understanding each other. silence feels like an empty void that we must fill, but the need to fill it sometimes takes away from the depth of the experience. when you can truly enjoy the silent presence of others, you know there is depth in that relationship.
i think this realization is honestly going to help me enjoy my future trips and take a little more knowledge about myself out of them.
About to go throw myself off a tall building because I have been writing this paper forever and I’m only 1/2 done with page 1
like who the fuck uses single spacing anymore
all I wanna do is snuggle in my bed ):
I’m watching a documentary for extra credit about electric cars and there was apparently this one car in the early 2000s called the EV1 by GM that a bunch of people in cali were buying but then the state decided that the oil companies were more important and so GM recalled ALL the cars and had them destroyed so that people on the street wouldn’t remember that this elecric car existed and it makes me so mad because we have all the technology that we would ever need to be sustainable but we don’t use it or invest in it because of fucking rich people who wanna keep getting richer
sorry I just get lots of feels with this stuff
Volunteering at Biscayne National Park this summer because fuck I need to do something I can put on my resume
YaAaAaAaY
going through the texas a&m job board and literally hating my life bc I could be a research assistant in alaska or the grand canyon with food and housing and money this summer but NO I GUESS I GOTTA TAKE CHEMISTRY AT FIU
My schedule for next semester looks SO FULL AND CRAZY
I’m so not going to have time for a job
Which actually makes it all the more important that I get into TRiP
ugh
Bio 2 with lab, entemology with lab, CALS writing requirement, and facets of sustainability
and I still can’t register for calculus apparently?
The fact that it is probably impossible to see and experience ever single square inch of this Earth is really frustrating
So I just applied to a naturalist/tour leader position at the MDC environmental teaching center, and an explainer position in the wildlife department of the Miami Science Museum.
Fingers crossed!
So I might be failing biology.
I’ve never failed a class before, and I don’t know how to feel about this. The only reason I care is for Bright Futures purposes, it’s not like I’m planning on graduate school..
ugh fucking school aiugfkdmgvieusprghk.mdfbvgfd
It’s always nice to go back and listen to all my Jason Mraz songs. They’re all so perfect and I’ve played them to the point that a normal person might be bored with it. He is the only new artist who has really carried my loyalty for years and probably will never stop doing so. Listening to Jason Mraz feels like going home at the end of a long day<3
Do all homework for weekend
Buy supplies for backpacking trip
Call Apple
Cumberland Island reservations- need to do Monday
Cleaned apartment
Work out every day
Wildlife Federation Scholarship application- half done
Summer FIU transient application
